Hello again! Its a new Flower!

Dear blog, hello again. It's been ages since I visited you. Lots of events had happened to me since last visit. I think I promise myself to always visit you last time. I'm sorry for not keeping it. Anyway, I'll summarize my whole 7 years in a short post.

Alhamdulillah, I completed my HOship and of course with blood, sweat and tears
Syukur, I currently work at Hospital of my choice 
Bravo, my car is not on debt anymore. Yey!!
Smile, for new housing loan debt 
Congratulation, I'm currently married with the person I cherish
Cheers, I have 3 nephews!! from my sister n my brother
Thank you mom, I have land of my name
Applause, I got my dream small little kitchen of my own 
Lastly, I'm still be friends with my very lovely, truthfully, trustworthy, can never be replaced good friends Haly, can't think how my life will be without her

There was so much more happy news for the past years, but not all days were silver lining and sugar coated. With all those happiness there were also sadness and condolences. 

Our families has returned to The Creator, my uncle Jeffrin, my atok Dulman and nenek Saniah, my aunty Rahini and my nephew Amin, and some of long lost family member in peninsular..
Not forgotten my lost pregnancy, i hope to see you in Heaven love..
In memories, my beloved Lily Tiger and Dennis Nikolaivich..
Parents diagnosed with NCD and getting older and older and older

Throughout those happiness there is also problem, but praise God, some storm has passed

HOship with a verge of involvement in mortality. Not to forget humiliation and threat received from the HR (without trying to understand or listening my explanation or situation). I promise myself if I'm in her situation in the future, I'll try to listen first and my action will be according to explanation and my investigation.
Chase out by loved ones multiple times for something that not even in your control. Especially during Covid era or worst couples of months before your own wedding. It is hard to forgive and forget. We all humans.
Involved in car accident and makes police report (self accident)
Leaking house and irresponsible developer thus lost thousands of ringgits for repairing multiple times and still leak till now

However, as a human, we made our own choices, we create the path that we gone thru. But life must go on. We only live once. Pray hard, don't play too much.

That's all! Thank you blog for still alive. I'll try my best not to delete any of the post even tho its silly. Thus I must choose wisely what I want to write in you. Adios! Till next time Blove!

Truthfully, 
Bebby

Day trip to Mabul & Kapalai Island

Hai blog! Just last Saturday I went to visit an island with my seniors. It was a random unexpected trip. I met them on Friday night during our friends wedding reception ( Dyana & Ismail ). Ren wanted to snorkel since its the first time she visit Sabah and as everyone knows sabah is famous with their islands, so they were finding people to go with them so that it get cheaper and the more the merrier right, so they invited me and kak Dla. When Sol ask me i straight away say yes. But after a while i feel hesitated to go, but i just keep it to myself. 

27.11.15 (Ismail&Dyana)

The next morning, Kak Dla pick us and we start our journey to Semporna at 6.55 am, we reach there around 8.45 am. We went to Kak Dla friend's office and ask for a boat price. At first we want to go Sibuan Island. But she said we need to get a permit first before we can go there. So in the end we decided to go Mabul Kapalai. The price she offered was Rm500 per boat and not including snorkeling gadgets. For that we need to add another Rm65 per gadget. So Sol contacted her contact and we get Rm300 per boat including snorkeling gadgets. She is really good in bargaining tho. 

So after waiting and filling document at the tourist jetty, we start our engine boat at 9.20 and start our boat journey. And after almost 30 minutes journey, we met the Marine, they were on their round to guard the islands around. He look at our document and notice that we dont have any stamps that granted us to go any of the island. For that we had to go back and get the stamps then only that we can continue our plan to visit island :"(. So, we went back to the jetty and Sol tried to get the stamps. There were 3 stamps we neet to get, which is from the police, national park, and jetty. All these people were there when we fill our document earlier, we dont know why they didn't pass it around to stamp it, its f.o.c so i didn't see the problem there. Its a troublesome to go forth and back jusft for the stamp. In the end we just managed to get the stamp from the jetty, all other people went back already, coz its almost noon and its Saturday. 

We started back our journey around 10.55 am and reach Kapalai around 12.20 noon. We skipped Mabul because Kapalai is better place for snorkeling, Mabul is just a place to take picture, thats what they said.

We actually only reached at the snorkeling point, which was also a resort. And since we are not their guests so we cannot enter their premises, we can only linger around the water. But, since one of my senior is a Captain in the army, she called her colleagues that apparently working there to guard the island and because of that we get the exceptional! The view, masyaallah, breath taking! Im in love!! ♡♡♡

I dont know how to swim and i only snorkel twice in my life, first time at Tiga Island, second time at Sapi island and both time i gave up early, i only saw few fishes that time. The water keep on going into my eyes and i keep on drinking sea water. Then thats it, i gave up. Again this time i also almost give up when i accidentally bump into the corals and cut myself at the knee. Then i tried to stand up and again cut my soles. And suddenly someone came into rescue. The diving instructor for the resorts named Mubin. 

He said i cannot stand here, its dangerous, there were sting fish around there and he bring me to the resort. After he treated my wound he asked me either i still want to snorkel coz he just saw a turtle not far from the resort. I said yes! Can i see it please! After my wound dried, we went back to the water and he teach me how to move in the water. With his guide we reach to the place where the turtle eat and spend their time. We get to see six turtle in total. Five adults and one baby turtle. But the baby turtle wasnt so baby, coz the size was as big as the tyre. The adult turtle were bigger than me. Im so excited as i want to shout when i saw the turtle. Thats the first time in my life seeing life turtle. Its green and look old. They are not afraid of human, and for that i managed to touch them (which i actually shouldn't do, because i can get their bacteria! ), they just swim around us, and look so old but so cute. The best scenery i ever had in my life so far. Sadly i dont have any action camera or gopro to capture the momment. Maybe next time, maybe.. here is some picture of turtle mubin sent me through fb, its not the turtle we saw that day, but he said it also a turtle that they have around the island. 

This was a memorable moments in my life, when i see and i can feel the fishes swims around me, just bump into my face, my feet. And the warm see water, blue and clean and beautiful. Thanks to god for the opportunity. I promised myself to always love the nature. 

After almost two hours snorkeling around (actually it feels like only 20 minutes) we went up and clean ourself and prepare to go back. I say thank you to Mubin and we went back. We didn't stop by Mabul, since we have to drove back to tawau and we short of time, so we just took pictures from the boat and sail back to the jetty. 

We reach jetty around  4.00 pm and straight away find restaurant to eat. We stopped by this restaurant S'Fu tomyam restaurant and ordered our lunch, i have to admit that their tomyam kelapa is the best. Its not in the menu, we have to order it. After that we drove back home and reach tawau around 7.30 pm. I took a bath and dozed off till next morning. 

People said opportunities comes once in a life time, so grab it while you still can ^^,

Thank you Sol for asking me out ♡

Easy Pavlova Recipe

Hi blog! Since i have a lot of time to waste this days, so i thought how about another post! I have nothing to do, why not making one! So i decided to make a pavlova today. And its my first time making it.

I googled "pavlova" and i found this easy pavlova recipe at allrecipe.com (^^,) yey! Just a few days back my sis in law made pavlova also for the first time, but it didn't turn out so good. Maybe there is a problem somewhere in preparation. We googled why and found some information. We must make sure that..

》》All utensils are dry
》》eggs are in room temperature
》》put the sugar bit by bit (this is very important)
》》oven is pre heat

The ingredients are the basic ingredients that presence in all the house in the world. I divided all ingredients into half so that i can have a small size pavlova since im the only one who gonna finish it later. So the ingredients are..

》》2 eggs
》》1/2 cups of icing sugar
》》1 teaspoon of vanilla extract
》》1 teaspoon of vinegar (the recipe says lemon but im so lazy to cut the lemon)
》》1teaspoon of corn starch

The step are easy, first pre heat the oven and the baking tray (150°c) Then separate the white eggs, and beat it using mixer, full speed. Beat it until it light but not dry. My boyfriend said beat it through, then turn it over your head, if its didn't fall off to your head, means it beated just fine. Then add sugar bit by bit. Beat it till it smooth. Then add vanilla extract, vinegar and corn starch, and fold it through. Put the foil in the baking tray and spread it over. Put in oven and bake for 1 hour. Then leave it cool down inside the oven.

For the cream, just beat heavy cream it until light. Spread it on top of the meringue and put the fruits, like kiwi, blackberries, strawberries, basically sour fruits, since the meringue is already sweet. And done!

Mine a little bit burn because i mistaken the temperature, i think i put it by 170°c. 

25th November 2015, Wed

Its been quite a long time since i post something in this blog, basically its because i have tons of things to do in my real life, study, hanging out with friends, selling food, playing with pets etc etc. And ill only crawling back to this blog when i actually feels lifeless and overwhelmed. 😂

Anyway, back to the real reason why i suddenly back to this blog today. I just want to share my graduation pics 😁😁😁. Since in malaysia its a graduation season, so i feel like joining the festive. Mine was in June this year, but because i dont remember this blog back then, so only today ill upload the pics.

I want my graduation album to be filled with laugh and people in it. But it turn to be just me, myself and my family. This is because my photographer wanted to capture just me. 😕😕😕😕😕. He is a professional photographer. He hv been hired by lots of vvip, always won a competition, some of his works qualified to be included in the exhibition and i get to admit, his works was "otlichna" (excellent). But it was too professional for me. This ordinary cute girl just want a regular someone to capture the moment that day. To capture an interesting, good, one last pic with my friends that mostly im not be seeing them again in the future.

To think about it, i always have this thought that graduation its the end of all the suffer and the beginning of all the glory. But after experience it. I begin to miss all the "suffer" back in student life. All the business, the excitement, and all the freedom of a student. What i mean by freedom is that - free from responsibility and somehow we only have one mission to accomplish - to graduate. And now ive graduated and i feel lost. It feel like im lack of purpose, i hv nothing to accomplish, no mission, no direction. But i hope this feeling will end soon. As we get our offer letter to persuade our so called dream to become medical officer. I hope soon, as in very soon. Im tired of waiting.

Anyhow, this is the magnificent pics of my graduation. As what they always say. "You Only Grad Once" 😆😆😆

Not that much, but its better than nothing 😈. Till next time

new leaf

Monday, 1:17 am
I decided to delete all my old posts.
I decided to re-write my blog.


This is actually the third time i re-write my blog. Not because i have something to hide, its simply because i hate reading what i wrote before.

Lets make this blog is all about me, coz i know aint nobody cares about it. lol.
Im the type of person that very very very pessimist. My blood type is B+ but yeah im pessimist. Currently im a 5th year medical student. Live in Russia. Live alone. And gonna graduate soon, in one and a half year count. Im so called not a single lady, coz i have a boyfriend back in Malaysia that i already in a relationship for a bout 3 years. And again still counting. I like to cook, bake, sing, and travelling. So far i've travelled to London, Paris, Turkey, China, and Hong Kong. I love my country Malaysia, but i admit that i know nothing about her. And that is something that im not proud. What i want in life is an easy life. A life without problem. Which is impossible for everyone to have it. Especially for someone like me, that i guess like to create a problem for herself without she herself know, until she is in trouble then she realize that the problem actually come from her herself. Yeap! thats me.

And usually when i face a problem, that me myself create and me myself cant solve it, i usually will come back to this blog to pour all my sadness and all my undelivered words to tht specific problem, eventho i know this wont help me to solve it, but still i want to write it. Coz i know aint nobody got time for this. I usually will come to this site when i feel down, when i feel depressed and when i feel being pushed away. Yes, im a pessimist. Sometimes i wonder how i can survive this world all these time. Coz from what i know, world never being kind to anyone of my kind. Guess, im lucky i survived.

For now,thats all. This is all that wondering around my small little brain. Till next time little blog. Adios.

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